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[cantgetanyworse]

This is Jane Porter, leave a message!

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[cantgetanyworse]

I suppose so! Though wouldn't it be more fun with company?

[hitokiri]

thats why im talkin to u??

[cantgetanyworse]

[Oh. That's oddly endearing.]

All right then :)
How have you been since the tournament?

[hitokiri]

well u know. had a drink with that gwion. nice little battle.
the most important guy in the world thats our ticket out of this hell didnt fuckin die so i guess thats a win huh

[ and nothing terrible happened in there at all, of course. ]

[cantgetanyworse]

I suppose so, though I can't say I'm fully aware of the king's position in the magic that brings us here.

[With the looks on the faces of some of the people as they'd come out of the builidng, Jane did get the feeling that something awful had happened in there. She hadn't pried at the time.]

Izō, may I ask you a personal question?

[hitokiri]

something about his stupid magic sword that only he can use cuz of some chosen one shit where i guess if he dies its bad because the sword only wants him or something. dunno. i hate that
then its just a fancy sword and its the SWORD thats strong. but CAN U FIGHT thats whats important

cant stop u from asking
i guess

[cantgetanyworse]

At the tournament, when I was healing you... why did it seem like you wanted me to be afraid of you?

[hitokiri]

[ unfortunately for izō (and his stubborn pride) it's much too easy to type out the first things that come to mind. ]

cuz then i dont gotta explain myself all the time and ur just gonna get rid of me anyway when i aint worth the trouble so might as well just cut the middle out. times all fucked up right so maybe u wanna save what u got for somethin important

[cantgetanyworse]

[Oh...]

And what if I thought you worth the trouble?

[hitokiri]

thats what im sayin its just a matter of time
anyway u know this kinda shit makes the drinks not taste so good so its a good thing i dont care

[cantgetanyworse]

You really don't care?

[hitokiri]

i aint picky is what im sayin. gimme an hour or so then i really wont care hahaha

[cantgetanyworse]

Well you may certainly have my friendship if you want it. I'm not in the habit of abandoning people because they're a little difficult.

[hitokiri]

[ there's another gap in time here between jane's message and the next. maybe it even seemed like he might not respond again at all, but eventually it shows up. ]

why
ur not laughing at me so i aint just free entertainment for u. do u just think im pitiful cuz u might as well just tell me upfront
keepin somebody around who only cause u t/rouble makes no sense. people left me behind over less before
nah it makes no sense at all any way u turn it

[cantgetanyworse]

Let me make one thing quite clear. I'm not making fun of you.

[Nor does she pity him. In the short time they'd spent in each others company she'd got the distinct impression it wasn't something he'd appreciate.]

But I certainly believe that sometimes a person needs somebody who sees them for the person they are and not the trouble they can bring. I don't know you terribly well yet, but I think I would like to.

[hitokiri]

and if u dont like the person i am? everybody i knew before i knew since we were kids. woulda done anything for them.. didnt make no trouble for nobody back then. jus wasnt good enough.
end of the day im just some manslayer u keep around i guess
ur so stubborn

[cantgetanyworse]

I am stubborn.

[She sure isn't going to deny that.]

Is it really so difficult to accept that someone might just want to get to know you, rather than use you as a weapon?

[hitokiri]

the people who got to know me walked anyway. least i get paid for my sword. whats a servant but a weapon anyhow?

heh u know i ran into a guy i know from back home before i met u. came running cuz of the name i was using. aint like i was surprised or nothin when he was real disappointed cuz ryouma's the guy u want for this kinda end of the world shit. i knew since i showed up here that i aint the right choice
hehe my skills are something he can use though thats for sure... when the time comes. no one needs someone like me unless theres something that needs killin.

[cantgetanyworse]

I'm sorry that life has been like that for you. And that isn't pity! I just think that you deserved better.

I don't think I'm a good fit here either. But we're all here for a reason - even you and I.

And I'd like to be your friend. Would that be all right with you?

[hitokiri]

what? why? u can heal and ur good at talking to people

[ you know... traits that qualify someone to be way better suited to stuff apparently?? ]

probably cant stop u any better now than i could the other time if ur still asking after this
but u still dont have to u know
u aint gotta go outta ur way to prove shit if thats what ur thinkin

[cantgetanyworse]

[Okay, well... she isn't sure he wants to know, but he asked.]

Because I'm not a hero, or a soldier, or a warrior. I'm a zoologist. I study animals. But somehow, I'm supposed to help save my world by being here.
I don't understand why I'm here any more than you understand why you are, but from where I'm standing you have far better qualifications than I do.

[hitokiri]

wait

thats a thing u can study??
figure it aint all about fighting though or else everyone would have the type of magic u can fight with right
can u talk to animals? cuz i can do that now and i dunno i didnt see the point exactly at first but hehe they notice shit u wouldnt think about

[cantgetanyworse]

I can't, though it would make my studies here far easier if I could. I have to use observation instead.

[Granted, she doesn't mind this. It's how it's always been done.]

But of course it's a thing you can study! You can study anything you like with the right passion for the subject.

[hitokiri]

huh. guess thats interesting. only thing ive ever been good with is a sword so it aint really gonna make much difference. not so useful around here though cuz no one needs weapons in peacetime

[cantgetanyworse]

Is there nothing you'd like to try? A hobby that doesn't involve a weapon?